FREE STORIES: “Visitation Rights” by Lawrence Dagstine

Welcome to Free Story Day! I have a chapbook tale to share called “Visitation Rights.” It’s a paranormal court story about a heated legal battle for a child transitioning into a ghost. The child’s father argues that his spirit should stay with him during this eerie transition, rather than remain in the realm of science. However, the judge believes he knows what’s best for the child’s welfare in his current state. There are science fiction elements to this story, as I predicted such court battles would take place long after Barack Obama left office. Originally published in 2009 by Damnation Books, it was part of their debut lineup of ebooks, when ebooks and the digital revolution were fairly new—Amazon Kindle, for example, was probably in its Second Generation. Lisa Jackson was my editor, and it sold extremely well for five years. Cinsearae Santiago created the cover. The story emerged during a time when I was writing a lot of sociological horror involving family dynamics, father-mother-child relationships, and how children can be more terrifying than adults in certain situations. Not too many authors were doing this kind of fiction back then. At least in a way that makes the idea of life after death seem totally plausible, kind of like it could just blend right in with the living and everything we deem real. At the time, I made a professional impression with it.

Anyway, without further ado…Visitation Rights (2009) by Lawrence Dagstine.

Jack Golden was magnificent, his wife Margery thought as she looked on from the front row. He was controlled, sincere, and candid, just as their lawyer had urged him to be. He was a tall, handsome figure of fifty-seven, barely even gray at the sides. He had dark brown hair and lively, intelligent green eyes like Margery, who had her own spark of confidence. She was petite, auburn-haired, and just as youthful-looking in her middle age.

Their naturally relaxed manners of speech were usually inclined to set a distance between themselves and those who existed outside the norm of modern society. Some in the courtroom found their cultured East Coast accents disquieting—after all, they were dragging this out in Jenny’s new hometown—especially when it came to these things. Still, wherever the legal battle might end up, Jack always regarded his family first and foremost and was ready to fight.

Margery, however, had felt awful on the stand. It had been a relief to discover that the lawyer had not chosen to make an issue of her visit to her daughter-in-law, Jenny Hathabee. She was as good as a wife could be to her son, who had been fatally wounded in Afghanistan. Of course, Jenny’s opening testimony was a real surprise; it almost felt like a custody battle. Cagey lady, Margery thought, wondering what other surprises the opposition had in store.

She watched now as Jenny’s lawyer slowly rose, like a bear moving in for the kill. Only this bear was rotund, his disposition stiff like the color of his suit, along with a short mustache and bulbous nose. Oh yes, and dark eyes. All lawyers had them. The odd image frightened her, but good ol’ Jack seemed to be reacting well, chin thrust out, hands on his knees.

“Mr. Golden.” The voice of the lawyer boomed in the cavernous courtroom. “What is your occupation?” He did not smile. His pose was unmistakably aggressive.

“I used to work in Washington during the Obama Administration. I was an inspector for a stem cell research facility. Just retired. Now I work part-time in a slightly similar platform, what the scientists-turned-corporatists call a nursery. The rest of my days are spent gardening, cooking, cleaning, hanging out about the house.”

“Are you enjoying your retirement?”

“I told you, I’m not that retired,” Jack said, smiling.

“All right. Since you’re familiar with stem cell research and nurseries, can you tell me why you chose that particular day to visit your daughter-in-law’s AV-36 at the camp?”

“I—I just couldn’t stand it any more. I’d looked at some pictures in an album, some frames on my mantelpiece. I missed him is all.”

“But why that particular day?”

“It was my birthday.”

“How old were you?”

“Fifty-seven.”

“What else did that day mark?”

Jack cleared his throat. “My retirement day, after twenty years.”

“Voluntary retirement?”

“No. They have this new program. Fifties are the new sixties. You hit fifty-five, you can retire.”

“In fact, it was an involuntary retirement, wasn’t it?” the lawyer pointed out.

Margery’s stomach knotted, afraid of where this would lead.

“Well, sort of,” Jack went on.

“And you felt, well, lousy. You needed a bit of comfort, a bit of remembrance. So you ran immediately to see your daughter-in-law’s AV-36?”

“Must we refer to him as AV-36?”

“Please just answer the question, Mr. Golden.”

“Well, yes.” Jack sounded confused. “Is there anything wrong with that?”

“From your point of view? Maybe not. From the point of view of an AV-36? That’s another question.” The lawyer began to pace in front of the chair, then suddenly shot Jack a query. “How did AV-36 react to your confrontation?”

Jack squirmed in his seat. “He seemed brain-dead at first, but otherwise he was glad to see me.”

“How glad?”

“Just glad.” He forced a laugh; it sounded hollow. “I brought him some clothes.”

“Where was he when you arrived?”

“In captivity.”

“And your visit interrupted this captivity?”

“Well, yes.”

“How did he express his happiness?”

“He sort of smiled.”

“Did he rush into your arms?”

“Well, no. He probably didn’t know to do that.”

“Did he say something like, ‘Gosh, I missed you,’ or did he show confusion and surprise?”

“I guess he was confused. No, wait! Maybe he was surprised.”

“Not confused?”

Jack scratched his head. “I can’t be sure.”

“In fact, for an AV-36, he was totally confused. Wasn’t he, Mr. Golden? We have it on good authority from the researchers that were present. AV-36’s transition was disrupted. He really didn’t know what was happening. You saw there was no military presence and you bullied your way in. You did not even use your real name.”

“I wanted to see him,” Jack said.

The lawyer sighed heavily. “Mr. Golden, the tragedy here is that you needed AV-36 for therapeutic reasons, to make you feel better about the things that happened to you on that day, to make you feel better about the things that happened to your son, Eric, in Afghanistan. Only AV-36 didn’t need you. He was doing just fine. He is doing fine.” A brief pause, and then, “Yes, I understand it’s hard losing an only child to war, but you intruded on this woman’s life”—with this, he gestured to Jenny—“the new one she has built and worked so hard at. AV-36 is a happy, adjusted, productive, normal… Well, you worked in stem cell research, Mr. Golden, and even now you’ve found part-time employment in a nursery or camp which fosters the same kind of thing. As much as I hate to say it, he either didn’t need, or want, your visit, did he, Mr. Golden?”

“If they let the transitioning period happen in a normal way—”

“We are dealing here with what is best for an AV-36. That is the only issue in this court, Mr. Golden.”

Jack clenched his hands into fists. “Oh, for God’s sake, stop with the scientific labels! He needed his family around him. Not Jenny shipping him off to be prodded and poked!”

As the cross-examination continued, Margery felt a sinking sensation in her heart. She knew her man. Just beneath the surface, he was at the breaking point. The opposing lawyer suddenly became ingratiating, leading Jack through a series of questions that focused on his early life; the things that he and Eric, of all things, had done together—baseball, football, hunting, fishing—the affection and interests that both father and son shared. How odd, Margery thought. She wondered where the lawyer was going with this and hoped Jack would be able to sustain himself from tears.

“It was a terrible blow to lose your only child, your cherished son?”

“Yes, it was,” Jack admitted sadly. “Many young men and women died for nothing.”

“It depressed you?”

Jack faced the bench. “Very much.”

“Then when you finally realized that stem cell research opened up doors to all sorts of other possibilities, there came the loss of your AV-36?”

“Yes. I never knew we could renew and harvest so much more through monoclonal antibodies and mitotic cells. I never knew we could reach that level.”

“This loss and these possibilities combined, bothered you, did they not?”

“Objection!” yelled the defense. “My client is clearly being psychologically baited now.”

The judge said, “Overruled. I want to hear this. Go on.”

Jack looked to Margery; she covered her eyes and sank in her seat.

“Thank you, Your Honor.” The lawyer cleared his throat. “And your job after twenty years? After witnessing such scientific breakthroughs firsthand? Come, Mr. Golden. No wonder then that you were depressed, that you exhibited odd behavior. Also, you have been known occasionally to lose your temper.”

Jack was rattled now. “Sometimes. But I never—”

“All the pressures of life suddenly coming together can wreak havoc on a man’s psyche.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Jack cried, his voice rising, his body taut. He looked over at Margery again; she gripped herself from standing and interjecting.

“I’m talking about—” The big lawyer paused, his gaze first roaming the room, first to the judge, then to his client, Jenny, then to Margery, and finally back to Jack. “I’m terribly sorry, Mr. Golden. But your suicidal tendencies have to be faced.”

Margery felt an invisible hand grab at her insides and squeeze. She nudged her attorney on the elbow to do something.

The defending lawyer stood up. “Objection, Your Honor! I reject this line of questioning,” she said. “This is outrageous and debased speculation.”

The judge thought for a long hard second, then waved two fingers and said, “Sit down.” He nodded at Jenny’s lawyer. “Go on. This better be relevant.”

Jack rose out of his chair, then fell back, looking bewildered, exhausted, and defeated. “My what?!”

“I’m sorry, Your Honor,” the opposition said, shaking his balding head as if the revelation were equally painful to him. He turned and looked toward Margery. “The state of Mr. Golden’s mental health, as will be shown, was reported by Mrs. Golden herself in a meeting with a nursery counselor only a few months ago.”

“Did this meeting happen because of the AV-36?” the judge asked, still trying to find relevance.

“I can discontinue this line and pick it up again with the counselor. But I assure you it cannot be swept under the rug.”

The judge looked at Jack with an expression that seemed like sympathy. He shook his head, then turned and looked across the courtroom at Margery. His eyes were sad and questioning. His disappointment seemed to drill through her; she wished she could disappear.

Margery turned toward Jenny. “How could you?” she asked in tears. “You were like a daughter to us. We treated you as family. We put a roof over your head while you were married to Eric. Why?” Jenny quickly turned away, keeping silent.

“Um… May I request a short recess, Your Honor?” the defense asked.

The judge nodded, raised his gavel, and brought it down. He looked behind him at the clock. “Go and have some lunch, people. Be back at two.” Those present rose as he left the courtroom.

For a moment, no one moved. Margery rushed forward to her husband. Feelings of sorrow cluttered her mind, along with much to answer for. But she couldn’t find the composure to speak.

“I’m sorry, Jack,” she eventually said, embracing him as he stepped down.

He looked down at her with moist eyes and a frown. “You really think I would have chosen the easy way out? You really think seeing him like that would have affected me where I would have just…just ended it?” There was a moment of silence, then: “I miss him, Margery. I miss him dearly. He’s the only thing our poor Eric left behind. Transitioning doesn’t last a lifetime, you know. All I want is what’s fair before it’s too late. I just want visitation rights.”

*

When the hearing reconvened, Jenny Hathabee rose and approached the stand. It was her second time recalled. Her lawyer followed. Despite the wickedness beneath all that makeup, Jenny looked more radiant than Margery had ever seen her. Her face had filled out and her skin glowed with health. Clear-eyed, neat in her starched blouse and dress ensemble, she looked the picture of confidence and contentment—a far cry from months before, when depression and despair filled her life. It had left her like a hollow shell. Now those around her could acknowledge the fact that the emptiness was gone. She had never appeared as strong as she did at this moment.

Notwithstanding the dispute, Margery felt admiration for her. She had come a long way. From them. Perhaps from Jenny’s point of view she and Jack were pariahs, reminders of sadder days, an unwanted, unnecessary, and negative influence on an AV-36 already lacking in substance.

Jenny’s lawyer gently led her through the questioning. Earlier, he had driven home a few key points to his arguments. It remained to put the frosting on the cake. “And your previous husband, Eric Golden, who is a major factor in all this, was, to say the least, unsatisfactory?” he asked.

The question made Jack shrink back in his seat.

“At first I was reasonably happy,” the woman of twenty-eight said. “At first we even lived in Connecticut with his parents, because we were still on the waiting list for a home on base. Then he went off to Afghanistan, the war became fierce, and the military rarely let him home. After that, there came AV-36.”

“I understand. But when the military did let him home, how did he act?”

“He was distant. He was different.”

“Did you contemplate divorce?”

She lowered her eyes and clasped her hands across the expanse of the bench. “It was on my mind to run away. Yes.”

“Was the experience frightening?”

Very.”

“With respect to your former in-laws, how did they treat you during the marriage to their son?”

“We never had real words. They were never unkind, mind you. They acknowledged me as their daughter.”

“And are they sincere when they say they love AV-36 now?”

“I believe so.”

“Is it true that after your husband’s death, they were supportive?”

“Yes. I suppose so.”

“And when you learned about the importance of transitioning facilities, both morally and ethically, how did your father-in-law react?”

“He did not approve of them.”

“And he made these views known to you, yes?”

“Emphatically. Often angrily.” She stopped for a second. Then, facing Jack, she went on, “Of all people, I thought he would have understood.”

The lawyer paused. Turning, he looked at the Goldens. “Would you tell the court, Ms. Hathabee, in your own words, exactly why you feel that it would be better if Mr. and Mrs. Golden stayed away from your AV-36?”

“Where does he come off saying that it’s her AV-36?” he whispered to Margery.

“Shush!” his wife pinched him.

The judge tilted his head toward Jenny for her reply, then looked over at Margery; she reached out and took Jack’s hand. It was cold and clammy.

“AV-36 is a happy, well-adjusted manifestation. He has a new life awaiting him in every respect. All that stands in the way is the transitioning process and the constant interference of Jack Golden. Thanks to the good people at the camp, he has a new form. One which he loves and, as I’ve said to this court in previous days, another on the way. I know my former in-laws think me cruel and heartless for taking this action, but I have to make decisions that are best for my AV-36. The past for him is a dim memory, as is the case with much of his kind. Why should he be disrupted? Why should he be treated differently than the rest? It is not necessary for him to visit with Margery and Jack. In fact, with all this emotional debris and refusal to let go, it will undoubtedly be bad for him—”

“What makes you say that?” the lawyer interrupted.

“His reaction to Jack’s visit to the camp was upsetting,” Jenny answered. “It upset the others like him. It was an unneeded intrusion on a perfectly good harvest.”

“This must have aggravated you.”

“Yes, well so.”

“And how did this affect you?”

“Badly. I began having migraines and terrible thoughts. I woke up with nightmares almost every night thereafter. I felt haunted by something. Like I was surrounded by negative energy. Like—”

“Like something was molesting your conscience and the environment in which you resided?” the lawyer asked.

“I can only assume it was because of that.”

“Some researchers call that kind of invasive energy an entity.” Then the lawyer said, “Do you believe in the supernatural, Ms. Hathabee?”

Jenny vested a short laugh. “This is the twenty-first century,” she said.

He pushed some more. “Did this whole ordeal leave you with any regrets, any second thoughts about your decision on visitation?”

“None.”

“Regardless of contemplating divorce, did you still love Eric?”

“Yes. I’d be lying if I said otherwise.”

The lawyer nodded and looked up at the judge. “No further questions, Your Honor.”

He doesn’t have to go much further, Margery thought, watching him closely. She looked up at the judge, then back at her husband. Jack’s eyes were burning with intensity. Then the defense attorney moved forward, long-legged, lean and spare, indicating a singleness of purpose that almost made Margery wince with fear for Jenny’s sake.

The female lawyer, brown-haired and bright-eyed, started abruptly. There were no introductions or preliminaries on this day. “If you had not stayed married to Eric, Ms. Hathabee, would you have allowed your former in-laws to have access to AV-36?”

“I object, Your Honor,” the opposition said, rising. “That question is completely hypothetical.”

“I understand.” She reconsidered. “I’ll put it another way then. Ms. Hathabee, you did not have any objection to living with your former in-laws or their support—psychological, financial, whatever—during the brief period following your widowhood. Am I correct?”

“Well, I was no longer an army wife. I had to leave the base. I had no choice.”

“Did you detest it? Were those extra few months so terrible?”

“I did not feel comfortable being dependent on them again. But I did get back on my feet and start a new life for myself.”

“Did you think that they were a bad influence once the AV-36 revealed itself?”

“I wasn’t overjoyed.”

“Why?”

Jenny hesitated, her eyes searching the courtroom. “They couldn’t offer a positive atmosphere for him in this new state.”

“Are you blaming them for the hauntings?”

“The bad energy? In a way, I suppose. You have to understand. Even though Eric and I were distant at times, and the marriage quite rocky, we took vows. If we had divorced, mentally, it still would have been ‘til death do us part. For me, at least. There were always hauntings, but not really in the paranormal sense of the word. Eric’s father just possessed him, instead of the other way around.”

“Possession unwarranted and through influence, an influence you perceived as negative. Is that what you mean?”

“In some ways, yes.”

“In what ways?”

“They were together a lot.”

“Meaning you were left out. That seems very vague, Ms. Hathabee.”

Jenny’s lawyer stood up. “I object, Your Honor. Now she’s badgering my client.”

“I’m almost inclined to agree,” the judge said. “Go on, but gently, please. This is not a murder trial.”

The defense turned back to Jenny. “So you felt that your father-in-law was a bad influence on your AV-36. Perhaps there is vindictiveness lying just beneath the surface, Ms. Hathabee.” She paused. “What do you think?”

“No, I don’t,” Jenny said calmly. “You’re making it sound like I’m deliberately hurting my in-laws. That’s just not the case.”

The attorney was relentless. “So if it had not been for Eric Golden, you might never ever have prohibited your former in-laws from seeing the AV-36?”

“Maybe not.”

“But the spirit didn’t want to be reminded of its own life, what had happened to it, as if it somehow diminished him. It wanted to move on in the most comfortable way possible, surrounded by loved ones. It didn’t want to be brainwashed or tagged. It didn’t want to be harvested or converted. Transformation was the last thing on its mind. Or at least what was left of it. Isn’t that right, Ms. Hathabee?”

“This line of questioning is ridiculous, Your Honor,” the bulbous-nosed lawyer said as he rose to his feet once again.

“I’m simply trying to show, Your Honor, that none of the motivations for barring my clients from visiting their son’s ghost have anything to do with the welfare of the soul per se,” the defense explained, “that an adult woman’s concerns have clearly interfered with what is a perfectly natural, helpful, and enhancing way of moving on to the afterlife uninhibited. It is both moral and ethical, and I see no reason for an objection to that line of questioning.”

“In cases of spectral phenomena, that does not mean the right to automatically grant visitation rights,” the judge interjected. “There are new laws in this day and age. There are reasons for these camps. One minute you’re letting ghosts roam freely around living rooms and graveyards, the next, religious fanatics are hiding in church basements. Or protestors are blocking the White House lawn in droves.”

On the witness stand, Jenny looked wilted, and for a brief moment Margery was afraid her attorney had pushed a little too far. She glanced at Jack, who merely shook his head.

“It’s way out of control, honey,” he whispered. “We should have just said our goodbyes. Besides, there’ll always be the memories.”

“Poor Jenny,” Margery said. “Poor Eric.”

The judge banged the gavel. He was visibly angry and the creases in his forehead stood out. “You may step down, Ms. Hathabee.”

Shaken, Jenny walked back to her seat.

The judge, calming, looked down at all of them. “It would seem that the presentation of both sides of this case is missing a very important element.” In the long pause that followed, Margery felt her stomach drop. “You will see to it that Eric Golden’s ghost is present in this courtroom tomorrow at nine.”

“No,” Jenny cried. “I will not have that!”

“Sir, I hate the idea of putting my beloved, but deceased, child through this,” Margery said.

“He’s only dead seven months,” Jack agreed.

The judge did not respond.

“You know, the man is right,” the Goldens’ attorney said to both sides. “Nobody wanted it this way. Now it’s our only chance.”

“But it’s wrong,” Margery said, her eyes welling up. “He’s barely recognizable.”

“It’s also his soul at stake.”

“Can they refuse to bring him?” Jack asked.

“No. Not while he’s in the custody of that facility. Not while he’s tagged.”

The whole courtroom seemed upset.

Finally Jenny’s lawyer, who was just as concerned, stood up and sucked in a deep breath. “Tomorrow at nine, Your Honor.”

*

The next morning, the courthouse was quiet, all but closed down, mortally wounded by the previous day’s events. It surprised Jack to see it this empty, except for the clerk and the stenographer.

“I won’t say that I’m not scared,” Jack admitted.

“I’m petrified,” Margery swallowed. “You think in this state he’ll know me?”

“You’re his mother. Nobody forgets their mother.” They took their seats, and soon Jenny arrived with her lawyer. The two of them had probably had breakfast together, Jack thought with disgust. Conspiring to manipulate our lives. What did it matter to them?

Despite all his valiant efforts to hold back the gloom, depressing thoughts still consumed him. This thing with AV-36—Eric being called to court—had jolted him. Why was all this happening? Time was when you could go to sleep and get up in the morning and society would be the same as it was back in 2010. A man went to work and provided for his family. A mother watched over the house and helped with her share during a struggling economy. Parents stood lovingly, proudly by their sons and daughters who served in the military. Back then there were no such things as hauntings or the spirits of the dead wandering the earth. At least not outside the movies or comic books. There were no such connections between stem cell research and the paranormal. There was no such thing as life after death in modified forms. Even outside religious circles, the soul was a questionable invention. Had times changed that much? Was this really the future? Where were the honor and dignity in mothers and fathers having to sit in court and secure the right to visit their own offspring and say farewell? Jack was sorry he had turned down the open coffin at the funeral now. Anything was better than having to go through this.

He tried to remember why he had put those shells in the shotgun the day Margery had found him in the study. He could barely remember doing it, just as he had barely remembered the time he placed the razor blade and bottle of scotch along the side of the bathtub. Was he consciously seeking to check out of life, put an end to the frustration and pain and join his son in this wisp-like form? Never! Could he have done something so cowardly and unworthy? Of course not; impossible was a better word. It must have been some of that negative energy like they mentioned in court. Yeah, that was it. Bad energy.

Margery gripped his hand. They heard movement behind them and turned. A smoke-like figure with grayish-blue crystals surrounding it materialized at the door. It slowly moved in, looking like the former embodiment of a man, but now something else. The ethereal image of Eric. Jack felt his heart leap to his throat as their son hovered up the aisle. Everybody hurried to their places, frightened. The ghost stood at the head of the courtroom, busy exploring the high ceilings.

“He didn’t see me,” Margery whispered.

“Of course he can’t,” Jack said with some trepidation. “But he will.”

The clock read fifteen minutes after nine. There was no sign of the judge’s arrival. No one said a word. Margery cleared her throat and the ghost looked toward where they were sitting. Jack lifted his hand and waved. Eric waved back and smiled. Jack noticed a metal bracelet around his wrist. It was made out of a strange metal and read AV-36. Jack whispered to Margery, “Honey, focus!”

“M…Mom?” the ghost said.

“Hello, dear,” Margery cried, her eyes quickly filling with tears.

“See. He recognized you. Nothing to cry about.” Jack did all he could to blink away his own tears. “He just needed a bit of instruction.”

The door leading to the judge’s chambers opened. “All rise,” the clerk said, and they stood up. The judge breezed through the door, lips pursed, unsmiling, and tight-faced like the day before. Jack looked for signs of sympathy; he got no such vibes. Matter of fact, the judge seemed terrified by Eric. Eric, on the other hand, was busily absorbed in assessing this phenomenon of a room and the mysteriously black-robed man who sat high above him in it.

“Will counsel for both parties approach the bench?” the judge said after the ritual of his entrance. Both lawyers rose and stepped forward. Jack strained to hear what they were so fervently whispering about. Eventually, the two lawyers returned to their seats.

“It’s the best deal we could work out,” the Goldens’ attorney said. “The judge will talk with the apparition alone in his chambers. He’ll seek what’s best.”

The judge looked up from his papers. “This trial has been based on one party’s yearning to hold on while the other has wanted to let go,” he began. “It’s been about trying to stay in touch with something far beyond the scope of the living, to either pay tribute or say final goodbyes, and to do what is merely in the best interest of the deceased. Today we will come to a decision.” There was hesitation in his voice. “There will be no court reporter present and no lawyers. Just the ghost and myself.” He paused and looked at Eric. “AV-36,” he said gently.

Everyone in the courtroom looked at the spirit who, surprised to hear his tag called, looked down at his bracelet then up at the bench. When he started hovering, the judge turned to everyone in the courtroom. “Court is adjourned for one hour,” he said, standing up. The ghost gravitated toward the door of his chambers.

Jack felt something give way inside of him. An image, like a developing Polaroid picture, began to appear in his mind. The judge and Eric moving inexorably away from him, levitating, space and time disintegrating. In the image, he could see his own trembling hands, reaching, trying to stop the movement of Eric and the judge. Then they disappeared and he heard the sound of the door closing. The image dissolved.

In the end, all the legal research, all the petitions, all the printed words meant less than this court had realized. The answers could only be found in that most vulnerable place of all, the human heart and soul.

“What is it, Jack?” Margery asked. There was no hiding anything from her.

“It’s no good,” he said. “Either way.”

“You mean the transitioning?”

“Eric will leave this form at some point or another.”

She nodded. He knew what he must do.

An hour had passed. No word from the judge’s chambers.

Jack was watching Jenny. He felt so insignificant in the baroque vastness, not at all the formidable figure he once was. He moved toward her now and struggled to smile.

“I’ll only be a minute, Jenny,” he said, leaning toward her. “I don’t like this business of Eric being in there with him.”

Jenny turned a cheek. “I know that, Jack,” she said gently. “I’m not too crazy about it myself.”

Jack shook his head. “I tell you, Jenny, I never wanted this. I swear it! You were a good wife to my boy, and an even greater daughter.”

Jenny looked up. “Really, Jack?”

“Yes, absolutely. I know you’ll treat my son’s ghost just fine, you know just what’s right for him. He needs to move on.” He inhaled a deep breath. “So what I’m saying is that it’s your say all the way. We’re the outsiders now. We’ve had enough time to say our farewells and make our peace. And if you don’t want us around—it doesn’t matter why—you’ve earned that right as far as we’re concerned. Only what’s best for Eric’s soul counts here, and we’re not going to barge in. Let science handle it. It’s just no good any other way. No good at all.”

“I—I don’t know what to say,” Jenny stammered.

“You don’t have to say anything. We’re just not going to interfere in your life any more. What we want”—he took in some deep breaths—“is not to give Eric’s soul a minute’s worth of pain. Let the professionals go on handling his transition. We’re going to ask our lawyer to withdraw our petition, to stop this whole rotten business.”

Meanwhile, another hour had gone by. Still no word from the judge’s chambers.

“I appreciate that,” Jenny said. “Oh, and don’t think I am oblivious to the pain of it for you and Margery.”

“So that’s it, I guess,” Jack said, bending over and hugging her. Before turning away, he added, “Take care of yourself, you hear?”

When he sat back down, Margery kissed him. “It’s all right, darling,” she said. “Who knows, this might work out in everybody’s favor after all.”

Finally, the chamber doors opened. The voice of the clerk boomed, “Court is now in session!”

“I have reached my decision in this case,” the judge said, avoiding the faces of those in the courtroom. The ghost was not with him. Jack noticed Margery glance at him, but he remained rigid, eyes focused straight ahead. He shrugged his shoulders; he also sensed something wrong.

“As you are all well aware,” the judge began, “the law in this country is not explicit on the point being argued in this courtroom. Yes, morals and ethics must be considered. The issue here is clearly the best interests of the ghost who, when he was a card-carrying member of the living, went under the name Eric Golden.” He paused. “We had a nice lengthy chat in my chambers. Now, it is difficult to assess the state of anyone’s mind and spirit in the brief space of an hour, or two, or even three. Certainly, it is doubly difficult in the case of the dead.” He raised his head and looked toward Jack. He flashed him a broad smile.

Jack recognized those blue eyes and that smirk anywhere.

“But since I am charged with such judgment, I have concluded that this particular ghost is well-adjusted, bright, cheerful, and has much more to look forward to in the next life. He is obviously loved and cherished by his mother and father, as I’m sure is the case with his former wife. The inclination of the case law is to leave well enough alone.”

Jack leaned forward now. He was about to say something when Margery put a finger on his lips and he quieted.

“The question then is, does this well-adjusted, happy ghost need the visits of any family to enhance the quality of his afterlife? It seems to me that in all human endeavors there is not exactly an overabundance of love, genuine and unselfish, honest and caring. When you find it, you should never deprive it of its natural outlet. The dead, in my opinion, need as much of it as they can get. Put aside your grievances. All of you.” He banged the gavel. “This case is closed.”

Jenny’s lawyer now stood up. “That was a very moving verdict, Your Honor. But if I may be so bold, where is the AV-36?”

“Where he belongs,” the judge said. “Free. After our discussion, I let him out the window. It was his choice and his alone. I did not coerce him whatsoever.”

The entire court was shocked; murmurs of disbelief followed.

“Well, that’s that,” Jack said, getting up. “No point in staying.” Margery rose with him as the judge continued to speak. They moved down the aisle, ignoring Jenny’s upturned face. Nor did they pause for one last look at the judge, although Jack could feel his eyes watching them.

“Don’t feel so bad, Jack. Wasn’t really your fault. He did his best,” Margery said as they walked hand in hand out the courtroom.

“Seems he forgot who the victim was.”

“Say what you want. I still think we won the case.”

“Perhaps we did.” He brooded for a moment, pausing in the stairwell. “How can he judge what’s best for a ghost?”

“That’s his job,” Margery responded. “And it was an enlightening speech. I’ll give him that. Turned out he had a lot more feeling than I thought.”

“Hmm, seems he had a little bit more than that.” He paused for a moment. “They took awfully long in those chambers. I want to know why.”

Across the lobby, the couple saw Jenny and her lawyer watching them from above in confusion and slight disgust. The judge, all changed now, headed for the courthouse exit. Jack and Margery took a step forward, hesitant. The judge stopped moving the moment he saw Margery. Through a mist of tears, she moved toward him, equally hesitant. They went to meet one another, middle-aged woman and middle-aged man. When they embraced, Margery was certain it was not only a contact of bodies, but of spirits as well, and what passed between them was beyond words. Then they parted. Jack moved in and the three exchanged brief glances. What they shared needed no articulation. Not any more. The ordeal was finally over.

“Mom, Dad…” the judge said, smirking again.

“We’ve missed you, Eric. We’ve missed you something awful.”

“I’ve missed you, too. And I’m coming home.”

Jack extended a hand and the judge took it. Underneath his cuff there was a bracelet made out of a strange metal. It read AV-36.

THE END

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“Doc, I’m telling you.  I just woke up in a hole in broad daylight.  No memory!”

When Herbert was told he had amnesia, he knew things were bad.  When he couldn’t feel anything below the waist, he got scared.  When the doctor told him he’d be paralyzed for life, he got depressed and wanted to die.  After all, no one wants to be a paraplegic.  But what made him crippled so suddenly? Did somebody do this to him? And if so, why? Now in the hospital, undergoing intensive surgery, little does Herbert know that the force responsible isn’t done with him, not by a long shot! Something’s coming back.  There’s a little unfinished business to take care of, and it comes in the form of vampires.

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Who are the Vendragon?

So self-assured, she was, only hours earlier. So brave and self-confident. So virtuous and independent at the right moments, yet obviously weak during others. 

She suddenly found herself pressing her hands to the sides of her head—she’d never done something like this in front of her brother—almost sick with discomfort.  She saw the expression on the boy’s face, then her own, only in her mind’s eye, weak, scared, unprotected, and she realized once more that they were just small children, incapable of much, and just how alone they really were.

 

ORPHAN’S PREY

 by

Lawrence Dagstine

A rather large, muscular, adobe-colored lizard was awakened that same night by what sounded like distant explosions.  From behind the controls of his land scout, the startled iguana with the reddish-brown leather armor and twaddle-speaking tongue realized it was thunder reverberating among the low cumulus that was some hundreds of miles wide.  There was the pitter-patter of rain pellets on the vehicle’s front looking glass and hood.  A break in the drought? No, couldn’t be; Ragnarok should only be so lucky this time of year.  All the water in the universe couldn’t fix that recurrent problem, only toss it a band-aid.  Hence the greenhouses, pipelines, and special sprinkler system back at the city.  Fog clouds approaching? Maybe.  It was a more logical bet.  In sandy, mountainous regions like this, a heavy thunderstorm or methane-mixed hail shower could be an isolated occurrence or a signal that a new front was moving in—or yet another unwanted season.  Whichever it was, the lizard was glad he was snug inside his tracker rather than camped out in a dry marsh or deep desert valley where the storm was picking up speed and strength.  As for how bad conditions would get, he’d just have to wait and see.

“Fog billows?” asked a similar life form from a standard operating panel in the rear.  Unlike the front of the vehicle, there were no visual systems or radar maps or even a looking glass to peer out of.   Compared to his much taller partner, this reptile’s armor was grayish steel, the portions of scaly flesh that was visible a mustard tone.

The tongue-tied lizard at the wheel of the land scout looked at his weather gauge. “With precipitation like this”—when he talked his mouth didn’t always move but, rather, an electronic chest unit with a flashing orb flickered—“what else could it be?”

“The way you study natural features,” his friend remarked, “I would have thought something more exciting.  Whatever your definition of exciting is.  You know, Koral, I’m quite surprised you never applied for an Earth visa.  You show a certain kind of enthusiasm for your work.”

Their vernacular wasn’t perfect, the interpretive English and back and forth chitchat a bit skidded; but the chest units helped immensely with vocabulary and pronunciation.

“You mean neurotic?” Koral’s tongue lashed out in slight irritation.

“Mmm, that’s the word.  A human term, too.  I’d bet my green farm that Earth scientists would have adored you.”

“Funny, Bakkra,” he laughed. “I don’t know whether to pat you on the gills for your clever perceptions of me—because I am mostly used to your cynicism—or just go ahead and collect my winnings now.  Heh! And here I thought only the man-droid was able to understand me.” There was a brief pause. “Speaking of which, the synthetic one has not returned or communicated back with our lovely package.”

“He’s a robot.  Robots are late, too, you know.”

“Not this robot.  I was the one the manufacturers hunted down and finally sold to.  I was the one guiding him through the wastes.”

“You seem concerned, and tired.  Should we call off the search?”

“No.  Not yet.”

“They’re that important to you, huh?”

“Yes.  That important.” Koral leaned back in his metal chair and let the ravaging elements unfold before him, while keeping a close eye on the overhead gauges and monitor for something else.

Lightning flashed some more.  The alignment of the bolts, shooting outward from the cumulus in all directions, reminded the lizard of the storm chasing he undertook in his youth; after three hundred and sixty years, one begins to feel old but still take pleasure in the eccentricities of the past.

Thunderstorms in the wastelands of Ragnarok were forever awesome displays of limitless power, he thought, sometimes releasing energy many times greater than the atomic explosion range.  Hailstorms derived of methane were a whole other story.  Still, he knew if you were close to either one, or became trapped in the very center of a fog cloud, there was about them a personal quality.  It was dramatic and inescapable.  It was terrifying but vivid, as if every sudden flash, every strong gust of wind, and every simultaneous explosion that crackled and boomed were seeking you out; after all, it really sought no one else.  The lightning came in multitudes and blinded you.  The thunder wreaked havoc on your ears and deafened you.  The ice-cold rains came down heavily and drowned you.  And on the open plains, the sand-filled wastes, and in hanging valleys of crystal and rock, there was no place to take refuge.

The snow, which frequently becomes spot blizzards with reckless currents of air beyond gale force, could also be merciless and astonishing in its ferocity.  Large, lazy flakes drifting down at first, touching the ground and melting instantly.  But in minutes the fall becomes thicker, more rigid, and the wind-whipped mess pummels the landscape.  The temperature drops rapidly.  Marshes and gullies turn in the twinkling of an eye to great streams of half-frozen mud, which then later break apart from those very same winds and become torrents, rushing steeply downhill unintended, catching up loose rocks, Yurga bush, even boulders.  Other times, the mud is uplifted and snatched from their channels, as if by some godly hand.  Then it is flung into the air with impending force, thus turning it into hail during its whirl around the cloud formations and falling with a shrapnel effect down upon lower elevations of land.  In the midst of the mud particles, an unscented methane composite, laid bare to Ragnarok’s wrath and planetary nature to do whatever mixing and mashing it likes.  Once it falls back down again, hardened and in hail form, it wreaks of the most terrible odor, which can be inhaled up to hundreds of miles away.

Koral always remembered the cloud masses beginning somewhere in the high mountains, never the desert regions or marshlands, and in an almost tentative fashion.  Always the highest escarpments, always the greatest plateaus.  Perhaps that was what made the seasonal irregularities so peculiar, so unrelenting in their expansive devastation.  And you never expected a season to change so fast or, unintentionally, drive through one.  Not unless it was closely monitored or regarded from a distance.

From within the land scout, and up along a high altitude, the now-dozing lizard found such an effect magical.  A swirling, shifting pattern of light, eventually graying, then dulling and, finally, obscuring.  Precipitation from some disturbance in the planet’s magnetic field eventually conjured up the surrounding fog—yes, that had to be it—but he couldn’t be certain.  Neither could his people.  It was just another mystery of the planet, passed down from generation to generation, and his hypothesis was open to much conjecture.  Sometimes there was a break; usually there wasn’t.  Sometimes it revealed uncharted peaks, gorges and canyons, and the Vendragon Township far below, often untouched by the gathering clouds and coming storm.

At times he found such atmospheric wonder indescribable.  He often used worlds populated by humans as a comparison: where Earth’s seasons changed over the course of months, the cycles on Ragnarok could change within minutes if not mere seconds.  He used these comparisons in his teachings.  The Vendragon, whose society already flourished in ways early human colonies had, achieved much knowledge and experience from it.  They took it with them wherever they went; though formally a tribal race, that and available technology became a handed down tradition.

Finally the lizard’s thoughts were interrupted by a voice on the overhead speaker. “Hey, storm chaser! Come in, chaser! What are you chasing after now? Over.”

“Apparently little boys and girls,” Bakkra hollered from the back. “Ain’t that right, Koral?”

The man-sized iguana turned and shot his mustard-colored friend a filthy glance. “Do you mind?” His chest unit flared bright red.

The speaker chimed again: “Check.  Fog clouds reach you yet? Over.”

“Affirmative,” he answered. “Unpredictable weather surrounding just about everything.  All within close proximity of the vehicle, at least, otherwise cloud-to-ground.  Too soon to tell.  Just beginning.  Over.”

“I’m sure the young ones are all right,” the speaker crooned; the voice on the other side tried to be reassuring.

“What makes you think I was worried about that? Over.”

“Have any of our friends made an appearance?” An intense silence followed.

Bakkra was about to say something smart when Koral turned and shushed him. “The man-droid has still not reported back, and no,” he said. “No activity or other signs of life in the region.  Over.”

“Oh, well, still armor yourself.  This storm system reading is immense from our side.  We’re going to catch it for good and for sure, and there’s an airstream behind it.  First snow and ice, then rain and wind, heavy at times.  Even at your elevation.”

“Trust me.  We’ve already felt the thunder.”

“Thunder is nothing.” The communicator cut off for what seemed like two, maybe three seconds, followed by unusual static. “We may lose… you if… you go any… higher,” the voice continued brokenly. “You been feeling tremors? Over.”

“Negative.” Koral flipped a few switches on the overhead panel and fixed the glitch. “Unless there’s something I don’t already know or you’re not telling me.  Over.”

“Hmm, well, we’re still sending two extra rovers your way.  Over.”

“Helpful, Ooglad, but Bakkra and I are all right.  Over.”

“Listen, Koral, I know it’s just a random search, and this cloud build-up is like all the other occasions, but let’s be honest here, you can use all the help you can get.” A brief pause, and then: “Small stuff, under four on the quake register, with sand-shocks set well outside your perimeter.  But why turn down a free assist? Over.”

“Thanks, Ooglad, but no thanks.  Out.” Koral switched off the communicator.

Bakkra was the one with the smug look now. “What did you do that for? You’d have to be mad to turn down a rescue and assist in conditions like this.”

“We don’t need it.  We’ll just stay the night.  The storm will pass, like those before it.”

“For all you know those children might already be dead! Your droid’s bleeper would have picked them up kilometers ago.  This, my friend, is just suicide!”

“Really, Bakkra? How so?” Koral leaned back in his seat once more. “Does this also mean I’m forcing you to commit suicide with me? Because I do occasionally entertain the thought.”

“I guarantee you these children are already worm food or some other kind of beast droppings!”

“I say you’re wrong.” The lizard was terribly amused. “For once in your pathetic existence, don’t be such a coward.  Part of our race’s survival depends on these two kids.  We’ve weathered fog clouds before, and knowing how Ooglad thinks, he’ll most likely still send out that extra patrol regardless of what I say.  He’s crazy and neurotic, too.”

“You’re right,” Bakkra said. “For once you are very right.  That young reptile is paranoid and foolish like you.  But I am not.” Gathering his things, he went on, “I don’t plan on staying here with you.  So, if you will not wait for the assist and accept it, then I will.  They’ll give me a ride back to the city, while you stay out in the hail to wither and die.”

He was prepared to slide open the door and exit the vehicle when Koral jumped up and stopped him. “Oh no, my friend.  You are not leaving this tracker.” The lizard made his presence felt; the air suddenly became hostile and serious. “Not while I am in charge.  I say we weather the storm, investigate these hills and cliffs, and that is final!”

“Let go of the door, Koral.  Things could get messy in a very confined space.”

Lightning flashed just outside; the crackling sound was ear-piercing.  Koral shook it off.  Then he released his massive-sized hand from the door’s grip. “Go ahead,” he said. “I’d ask you to be reasonable but I think you and I both know we are beyond that now.”

The mustard-toned reptile reconsidered. “The only reason you are being this way is because of what happened to Arim.  You’re scared you’ll have to live through a repeat.” There was a brief silence, significant, and followed by what seemed like an even more emotional reawakening. “Your puny brain might not realize it, because it’s crammed deep inside your subconscious—yes, one of your human terms—waiting for the chance to be exposed, waiting for the opportunity to be expressed, and aired in permanent relief.” Then Bakkra put his things down and took two steps back. “There is a cause to your neuroses, Koral.  I see this.  Ooglad sees this.  The whole tribe sees this! They worry about you.  They can see right through your armor, the pain you are suffering, the empty feelings you sometimes emit.  You leave the camps and city grounds to study the conditions out here, bury yourself in your research.  This is your means of escape.  But because Arim perished and you suffer does not mean others need suffer as well.”

Koral did not reply.  Instead, he returned to the front of the vehicle, strapped himself back into his metal chair, and peered silently out of the looking glass.

Bakkra went on, “I will not go.  I will return to my station.  This is a very strong storm formation we are dealing with here.  Hopefully, your instincts are right this time.  I also pray you will not be blinded by pride again.  This stubbornness needs to subside.”

Koral blocked the rest of what he had to say out and stared up at the overhead panels in dismay.  Eventually he closed his eyes and, with the ease of long practice in strange places, went immediately off to dozing again.  In a few hours he would see what effects of the storm he could find, and if the children or the man-droid had left a trail for him.  This time he was prepared.  He had a carry-along machine, lightweight with a strap, which detected alien life forms.

He continued to ignore Bakkra’s petty banter through the night.  He continued to be aware of feeling kinship with the environment and, oddly enough, with the fog clouds.  It was a feeling he found impossible to shake.  Pensively he looked back at the fateful actions that led up to the Arim tragedy.  It was so long ago, uneventful to say the least.  How could the thoughts still persist? Were they really bottled up inside of him? It was his first interspecies “coop”, as most out-colony settlers called it in those days.  The boy was too young.  Sixteen in Earth years.  For every hour the lizard was out there searching for the two orphans he probably thought of Arim and the accident that befell him twice as much, only unconsciously.

For a reptile such emotions were not like him; then again, perhaps he did not try hard enough to show emotion.  Along with his predictions in the weather, and for as long as he could remember, he had experienced premonitions instead.  If the premonition seemed genuine, his chest unit would emit a strange glow, and he would utter a warning of disaster to the rest of the tribe.  Very rarely did the Vendragon take him seriously, and very rarely did they act on it.  His forebodings were never specific, the calamity either absurd or nameless, so it was unusual that he did not speak of any premonition in the days or hours before Arim—a most treasured farmhand assisting their nascent culture in advancing agriculturally—was attacked and fell from that high cliff.  And never in his wildest dreams, he thought, could he predict that, even now, the two orphans he searched endlessly for might bring with them a terrible but ancient disaster.

TO BE CONTINUED…

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“Vendragons live in the grassier regions—probably further north.  They rely on our knowledge of agriculture.  Supposedly, they thrive off it.”

“Yeah, but couldn’t we still head in that direction? I mean, somethin’ made that smoke.”

“Oh, Blake! It’s much too far.  We should wait for a scouting vessel.” She started to undo the knots in her hair. “Go back to sleep.  I’ll take first watch.  Besides, the distance of these plains are farther than you think.  And who knows what manner of beast created those rings.  For all we know it might be the same kind of creature that attacked us, burning carcasses and picking on flesh.”

The boy went scared and silent.

She hoped she spoke with conviction, but after what they’d been through, it disturbed her to know that her brother’s thoughts had been running so close to hers. 

They settled down by the fire, and before long their breathing grew slower and deeper.  After a while, Chelsea couldn’t stay up any longer.  Eyelids falling, she reached for her brother’s swollen hand.  Normally he’d have snatched it away, but he didn’t now.  A veil of mist drifted over the moons that scattered the night sky, and the children slept…

Orphan’s Prey – Part Two

by Lawrence R. Dagstine

Chelsea woke in the twin lights of dawn and reached for her brother.  He wasn’t there.  She quickly looked around her, then scrambled to her feet. “Blake? Blake! Where are you?” For a terrifying moment she thought he had set off by himself had gone on about those smoke rings and the Vendragon for a good hour.  But then she saw him, a dozen or so yards from where the fire had been, staring out across the desert.  In the faint light, with his red vest and tan khakis, he looked taller and older.

Displeased, Chelsea clenched her hands into fists and plodded over. “Blake Prittengayle! What are you doing?”

He didn’t move but kept staring ahead as if in a trance. “Looks like some abominable wasteland, don’t it,” he said, without looking up at her.

“Abominable?” Chelsea vested a short laugh. “I can’t believe you know what that word means.  Come on.” She led him back to the campsite.  He moved like a tiny sleepwalker, then he started to shiver.  She lowered him to the ground and cradled his head in her lap, just as their mother used to.  After a while his shivering stopped.

“Chandler told me what that word meant,” he muttered under his tongue.

“Did he now?”

“Uh-huh.  Also, the air smells funny.  The weather’s gonna change seasons again soon.  The air is salty, like there’s somethin’ big on the way.  Chandler called it pre-cip… pre-cipi…”

“Precipitation?”

“Yeah, that’s it!”

“Blake, what were you thinking of running off like that?”

He slowly got to his feet. “I don’t wanna live on Ragnarok.  We don’t belong here!” His eyes were serious, then he faced the distant mountains.  He remembered the out-colony stories he had heard at the sanctuary from those who were older, those who had gone walkabout with their siblings or cousins on foreign worlds, only to take part in alien ceremonies or have relatives sacrificed in accordance to them.  One boy, eleven, who he shared bunks with, had returned to the freighter after four months of living on nothing but insects.  A salvage team had found him naked, soiled from head to toe and huddled up in the corner of some old cave in the side of a cliff.  He came back without his twin brother or his two older sisters.  There was no trace of the adopting species, no documentation.  The only thing the boy had to remember them by was a photographic imprint locked into a small handcrafted identification bracelet.

“I don’t wanna end up like Louie,” he finally said.

“Louie?” Chelsea was silent for a moment. “Oh, yeah… Louie Peder.  The other kids used to make fun of him.  They used to call him Stinky, because he never bathed or washed.  But after he came back from that extrasolar rock, after his sisters and brother went missing, he just wasn’t right again.  He stopped talking.  Kids stopped making fun of him.  They stopped bothering with him altogether.”

“Hey, let’s go south! Back to the transmat station, where the Keeper let us down.  Plus the air’s not as salty there.”

“But the freighter is no longer above the planet,” Chelsea tried to explain.

“So, maybe it’ll come back when it finds out what happened to us.  The Keeper has rescued stranded kids before.”

“Blake, there is no way I am going back through those crystalline wastes.  And there is no way I am going to risk both our lives going back near those giant stones in the bluffs.  That’s where we first spotted those monsters.”

“Ahh, Chelsea, please!” The boy practically begged. “We have plenty of daylight to guide us, and lots of rest!”

“And what about your hand? Last I looked your knuckles were almost flattened, all black and blue.”

The boy held his hand up for her to see. “Look! All better.  I don’t even need a bandage.”

She had known it was coming, especially since the talk the night before about the smoke rings and the northern part of the planet. “That terminus could be anywhere from a couple of hundred miles to a whole thousand behind us.  We never kept track.  We were inside the vehicle the whole time.  It took almost three days to get where we are now, and using a durable transport.” A brief pause. “I know you’re not that stupid.  There’s no point in even checking our rations.  We’d surely die of hunger and thirst.”

“No nutrient packs or water?” the boy sulked.

“No nutrient packs, I’m afraid.  And not really enough water, to be honest.”

“We could die of hunger and thirst the other way, too, sis.  Or we could get the rover’s touchpad working again.  Least while it’s still sunny.”

“Idiot! You mean the navigational router? Not even the best mechanic in the Cat’s Eye could get that infernal taxi and its low-tech components to run again.  Don’t you remember what that thing did to it?”

There was a moment of significant silence as the memory flashed back.

The girl braided and unbraided her hair.  She was intelligent—so was the boy when he wanted to be, eager and far beyond his years—but her life as an orphan had done nothing to qualify her to make this sort of decision.  So why would Blake be any different? Deep down she was scared like him, only less easily at times to show it.  All she knew in this strange world was that she had to protect her brother, no matter what the cost. “Okay, suppose,” she said slowly, “we stay here one more night, find some kind of cave or shelter in the vicinity of these hills.  After all, I think I noticed some cliffsides.  We have plenty of flares.  We can find some use from all this Yurga brush.  Give your hand another day to heal, maybe collect some herbs or plantlife and make weapons out of the crystals.  If a scouting vessel doesn’t come by tomorrow morning, then we might as well head back to the transmat.  Hope that the Keeper or Koral are there waiting for us.”

Blake nodded. “Fine.”

But no rescue came.  They spent another night in the bluffs, sitting beside the fire again, waiting and hoping.  They examined the flora they had collected, separated what could be used as food or an ingredient and what could not.  Wrist encyclopedias helped them achieve this function.  As handy as the schooling devices were, there was only so much memory it could hold and only so much knowledge it could provide.  That whole day picking, and straight into the night, Chelsea was frightened the monsters would come back—out of all worries, that remained her constant—while Blake complained that the air got chillier at times and smelled saltier.  Whenever she looked down at her wrist, she tried to pull up info about the planet and its meteorological phases, its orbit, and other asymmetries.  Nothing.  No factual data relating to the worlds in the surrounding nebula.  Not even an out-of-place singularity in which she could barter for a clue.  Whenever she tried to be smarter than the device, punch in a successful tag or keyword, she got nothing.  There was absolutely zilch on the tornado creatures—she had figured as much—and nothing even remotely resourceful on the Vendragon.  With its miniature data core, it was pretty much only good for geological referencing: rocks, minerals, botany.  Blake’s was slightly bigger but malfunctioning because he wore his on the hand that got injured. 

In the early morning hours of their fourth day, toting extra satchels of herbs and shrubbery, they set out to walk to the south.  The now longed-for terminus of their dreaming which lay beyond a ridiculous amount of horizons, and an expanse of miles they could not possibly fathom, they walked.  They carried with them spears which they had carved and built by hand: part jagged-edged crystal, part disposable laser cutter.  But even with the lighted, armor-piercing weapons, from all paths the odds were still too overwhelming.  They were not stacked in their favor this day just like the rest; it was a merciful thing they didn’t realize that they had about as much chance of getting to their destination as a soldier ant crossing the cold, terra-formed wastes of New Sedna. 

In the late afternoon they arrived back at the scene of the incident, only along a much higher tract of land; the rover was just over some dry sandy hillocks.  Had they been mindlessly walking in circles? Regardless, Chelsea stood on her tippy toes to look over the rocks.  The moment she saw the monoliths her anxiety level rose again.  Blake began to set aside a couple of water canisters, some wireless provisions, and the weapons they had put together the night before.  Then they approached the edge of the nearest ridge and peeked down.  They lay quietly on their stomachs and just watched.  There were no signs of life, but Chelsea still remarked in a low voice, “We shouldn’t be backtracking let alone stopping here.  Not even briefly.  Those things live here.  I just know it.”

“Oh, come on, sis,” Blake said. “You knew we had to come back this way, and I still think we should go down there and disconnect that touchpad, otherwise look for some kind of communicator.”

“Again, what good will an inoperable router do us?”

“If we get it working it’ll lead us in the right direction.  Duh!”

“Is it worth sacrificing your life for? Oh, you can be so stubborn at times, little one.  Scared one minute yet outwardly brave the next.  No, bro, as your older sister this is where I put my foot down.” She grabbed his wrist with force and, as he pulled away, she fell backwards in the dirt.  His encyclopedia unit detached easily and was now in her hand. “Blake, get back here this instant!” He started running downward along the dust and crystal-lined ridge, handmade spear in tow.  The pulverized vehicle was less than a quarter-mile away. “Blake, please, don’t!” Hesitant to raise her voice any louder, she hurried after him.

Back at the wreckage, the boy stood quietly facing the rover.  A single tear fell from his eye; moments later more followed.  Chelsea finally caught up with him; so did the terrible memories of days past.  Together they turned their attention to the upended vehicle, the broken glass, and the headless driver, whose lanky frame was still sticking a few feet out.  Much of his synthetic tubing was shriveled up, the plastics and operating fluids dried out from prolonged exposure to the heat.  The girl wrinkled her nose, while continuously stealing glances over her shoulder.  Unlike before, the monoliths now interested her.  She wondered what had caused such tall and magnificent bricks to melt from within.

“He ought to be buried,” Blake said.

“Chandler was a machine.”

“Doesn’t matter.  He was still encoded with feelings.  That makes him just as human as us—and he was my friend!” The boy wiped his eyes with his sleeve. “He deserves a funeral.  Even in a place like this.”

“Yes, but how?” The body was too heavy to carry back up the trail, and the ground at the site of the accident happened to be hard. “Listen, if it makes you feel any better, I’ll make a pulley out of what’s left of the truck’s door.  Seems durable enough.” She looked up at the sky. “The suns are currently with us.  It’s that or nothing, kiddo.”

Blake gave a nod of approval.  Then he went to the vehicle to retrieve the touchpad and scavenge for items his sister might have otherwise overlooked or considered worthless.  Afterwards he had to admit reluctantly that she was right: the corpse was heavy.  Panting and straining, they heaved Chandler’s remains onto the top of the blue-tinted door.  In the end, they raised the zyranium stretcher along a ramp and atop a high flat-surfaced boulder.  So flat it resembled a slab in midair.  Once it was clear of the ground, Chelsea crossed her fingers and hoped that the strange alien creatures who walked by wind and shadow wouldn’t mistreat the rest of the body.

The boy didn’t want to chance it. “Burn it,” he said, swallowing hard.

“Are you sure?” Chelsea asked.

“Yeah, I’m sure.”

The girl approached the boulder, leaned up against it, stood on the balls of her feet and raised the spear in her left hand.  The laser cutter at the tip of the weapon worked in conjunction with the lime crystals and ignited Chandler’s dismembered form.  Then she returned to her brother’s side, and together they watched the flames.  A few minutes later she climbed into the back of the rover again and checked the power cells.  The solar reserves were exhausted.  Looking up, however, she noticed a small bulb on one of the contorted operating panels.  A distress beacon—the silent kind.  It was glowing green.  Perhaps Chandler knew the moment they were attacked to throw it on.  Perhaps help was already on the way.  She parted a smile. 

Perhaps there was hope yet.

Outside the boy was packing the router all snug in his satchel.  He deposited its energy cubes in his vest pocket.  Hopefully it could be fixed.  Hopefully he’d be the one to mend it, and, if so, put it to good use later on in their travels.  Then he stared back up at the burning body.  He remembered Chandler’s singsong kindness: the ancient stories of wonder and the furtive bites of jerky and candy that caused intoxicating laughter.  What he did next was partly instinctive, reminiscent of his days aboard the Juniper.  He began to pray and hymn; it was the special prayer which, according to keepers and lonely orphans, would exorcise a new home or planet of its evil spirits and bad elements.  Just like the one that caused Chandler’s death. 

The girl came back and watched her brother.  She felt torn in two; as if half of her was standing dry-eyed beside a spread-open coffin intoning an Earth requiem, while the other half was dancing around gaily and celebrating life.

The boy’s harmonious devotion ebbed and flowed between the smooth cadences of what the Keeper had taught him of religion.  When they were residents of the Juniper, the children had a much simpler name for it.  They called it Faith Class.

Chelsea patted her brother on the shoulder and, giving him as much time alone as he needed, went to inspect the monoliths.  She raised her arm to the first and largest of the great green stones and punched a few buttons on her wrist encyclopedia.  When Blake had finished, he’d gotten off his knees and caught up with her. “What’s up?” he asked.

“Oh, nothing,” she replied without looking back.  Her tone was matter-of-fact.

“Looks like somethin’ to me,” the boy said nosily.

“Just surveying, really.” Chelsea remained unconcerned, but her intuition would have told another story. “See this? According to my cyclopedia this is some form of granite with an igneous outer layer but an internal heating source.” She held her wrist out for her brother to see; Blake shrugged his shoulders. “I’ve never seen anything like it in text cards or disks.”

“You mean like volcanoes?”

“Kind of, I suppose.  Also, these blocks have their own magnetic fields—small, mind you; practically dwarf-sized—but given their geological shape over time they probably act as nothing more than a wind receptor or miniature power conductor.” When she leaned in closer the key drive containing her life essence flipped out of her shirt and clung to the great stone. “See what I mean?”

“Whoa!” The boy was taken aback; he, too, felt the rope around his neck being tugged and pulled. “You think they have somethin’ to do with this planet’s crazy weather system?”

“Maybe.  Magnetic properties are very common among these types of stones: Earth, Mars, Ganymede, Titan, Upsilon, Epsilon, Centauri, Andromeda—they’re all over.  Scientists and colonies from across the stars have proclaimed they even have the ability to metaphysically heal the sick.” The girl was confident she was on to something. “But all the suns and moons in the Cat’s Eye,” she went on, “all the heat generated in Ragnarok’s core couldn’t cause melting of this magnitude.  I just know it.  No, this was a very different kind of combustion.  Or at least something along those lines.  A very powerful force from within, and that force absorbed the special properties these stones give off and used it to burst free.”

“So somethin’ lived inside this big rock, huh?” Blake looked up at the tall stone and rapped the side of it.  He counted twenty more within a few yards of where he was standing.

“Or slept,” Chelsea said. “If you want my opinion, they might even be some kind of age-old resting chamber or husk.”

“The Vendragon?”

“Nah, couldn’t be.”

“Bigger?” The boy’s eyes widened. “Worse?”

“Yes.” Chelsea went back to her wrist and ran another analysis. “And very much alive.”

After she finished scrounging around for more data, she shut the device off and flipped the top panel shut.  She stepped back from the monolith and observed it some more.  For a moment it reminded her of an extraterrestrial Stonehenge, an ancient Earth supposedly known for its magnetic and metaphysical properties.  Then she pretended it was a giant sandstone coffin; the eerie comparison caused a sudden shiver to run up her spine.  She soon realized that anything else than what she’d discovered so far was just a mystery or worthless knowledge.  

Blake was already halfway up the trail. “Come on, sis! We’ve got a lot of walking ahead of us.”

Chelsea eventually caught up. “Oh, here,” she said, going into her knapsack and tossing something his way.

“What’s this?” Blake had never seen anything like it; the interior was paper.

“When I went back I found it in Chandler’s overhead compartment,” she said. “I know how close you were to him.  Thought you might want it.  It’s a book.”

“What’s a book?”

“It’s an antiquity.  The contents are paper.  They don’t make paper anymore.  Not for centuries.”

“What’s an antiquity?”

“Old objects of worth, numbskull.” Chelsea rolled her eyes and laughed. “Books were the things used for entertainment or learning purposes long before touchpads and wrist encyclopedias became necessary.  They were meant for the imagination.”

Blake thumbed through the pages. “It has words in it.”

“So do wrist encyclopedias.”

The front cover read: Lord of the Flies

The boy grinned. “Thanks.  I’ll treasure it with my life.”

He led the way south into the dry wastes and ridges of sand, crystal, and sprinkled garnet.  He didn’t look back, but the girl glanced more than once over her shoulder at the rover and flat-surfaced boulder in the glare of the two suns.  In the hours before the double sunset they covered perhaps twenty miles.  Chelsea was happy with it.  So long as they were far away from the site of the wreckage by the time the primary sun disappeared over the horizon.  That’s all that mattered to her.

They found a good place to camp among a cluster of Yurga stalks which rose like pallid ghosts around a depression.  There, in this quiet place, other washed out trees and herbs were strewn about.  They laid out their provisions, pre-programmed a half-dozen flares and made a giant circle of flames as their fire, then each ate jerky and wuava fruit.  With twilight came the stars—millions of them, literally dotting every section of the colored sky.  Compared to the bluffs, the wastes were beautiful by moonlight—fourteen moons, upon first count—and the children were settling down contentedly in the warmth of the glowing embers.  Here and there the boy went into his satchel and fiddled with the router.  But it was obvious he could not get the touchpad working, no matter how hard he tried.  The girl, on the other hand, sat thinking about the Juniper, and how she too missed the voices of the kids now.  She could hardly believe how far they journeyed.  She could hardly believe they were going into their fifth day on this enormous planet. 

With the flames crackling in all directions, the children heard a metallic clatter in the distance and saw a light inching across the skyline.  It was some time before they realized that it was a rover coming up through the wastes. 

They also shared the most unusual feeling that they were being watched.

The girl’s voice was uncertain. “If we ran quickly, do you think we’d catch it?”

The boy said nothing at first, strangely sniffing the air.  Very carefully he kicked sand and ash over the fires, extinguishing every single glimmer of flame that surrounded them.  His behavior was very weird.  After a time the light moved on in the direction of the bluffs.  Then, finally, he nodded to his sister. “Koral?”

Chelsea, hardly seeable, shrugged her shoulders. “Can’t be sure.” There was a moment of silence as they stared past each other in the darkness. “It’s late,” she whispered. “I really don’t want to take any chances if we don’t have to.  Go ahead.  Make another fire.”

The boy smelled the air again, then ran up the rocky ridge behind him. “Salty,” he said. “I knew it.  Look!” Not one, but two immense fog clouds were moving across the desert fast.  Almost like airborne sandstorms. “Bad weather’s on the way, sis.  Pretty low-cast, too.”

“Smells like methane if you ask me,” Chelsea remarked curiously.  After a while, the stench had become so unbearable she had to pinch her nostrils.

“It’s in the snow that travels over the endless sands,” Blake pointed out, “and the snow falls within the fog.  Never outside it.  Chandler told me all about it.  It’s an atmospheric phe-nom…phe-nom-e…”

“Phenomenon?”

“Yeah, that’s the word!”

“You make that sound as if it’s a good thing.”

“No, it really isn’t.” The boy looked to the plains and darkened horizon. “We need to take cover fast, sis.  Real fast.” His voice was full of worry.

With the helpful glare of one or more moons, Chelsea could notice the same in his eyes. “What if there isn’t enough time? What if we can’t find a cave or some rocks quick enough?” She panicked.

So self-assured, she was, only hours earlier.  So brave and self-confident.  So virtuous and independent at the right moments, yet obviously weak during others. 

She suddenly found herself pressing her hands to the sides of her head—she’d never done something like this in front of her brother—almost sick with discomfort.  She saw the expression on the boy’s face, then her own, only in her mind’s eye, weak, scared, unprotected, and she realized once more that they were just small children, incapable of much, and just how alone they really were.

*

A rather large, muscular, adobe-colored lizard was awakened that same night by what sounded like distant explosions.  From behind the controls of his land scout, the startled iguana with the reddish-brown leather armor and twaddle-speaking tongue realized it was thunder reverberating among the low cumulus that was some hundreds of miles wide.  There was the pitter-patter of rain pellets on the vehicle’s front looking glass and hood.  A break in the drought? Nah, couldn’t be; Ragnarok should only be so lucky this time of year.  All the water in the universe couldn’t fix that recurrent problem, only toss it a band-aid.  Hence the greenhouses, pipelines, and special sprinkler system back at the city.  Fog clouds approaching? Maybe.  It was a more logical bet.  In sandy, mountainous regions like this, a heavy thunderstorm or methane-mixed hail shower could be an isolated occurrence or a signal that a new front was moving in—or yet another unwanted season.  Whichever it was, the lizard was glad he was snug inside his tracker rather than camped out in a dry marsh or deep desert valley where the storm was picking up speed and strength.  As for how bad conditions would get, he’d just have to wait and see.  

TO BE CONTINUED…

Author’s Note: First Draft

Lawrence Dagstine: Hardcore Halloween Story Bash…

HARDCORE HALLOWEEN Story Bash…

HORROR STORY: “Victimizer”

by Lawrence R. Dagstine

Suggested Rating: 18 and Older, for sexual & extreme content.

[“We make up horrors to help us cope with the real ones” ]

                                                                       -Stephen King

“VICTIMIZER” by Lawrence R. Dagstine

 

If someone were to ask me if my life has changed dramatically, I’d have to say that it has in only one way, and it came years after my victims requested it.  If they were to ask me what I do for a living, I’d tell them that my job entailed a certain obsession of mine, and I treat my work with great enthusiasm, immersing myself in it.

Who am I? Well, I could be any one of millions of people with occupations just like you, living in any small town or city around the country.  I could be the janitor in your child’s elementary school, the guy who drives the ice cream truck at your neighborhood playground, the man behind the counter at your local video store, or the 7-11 clerk who works the Slurpee machine.  I could even be a police officer retiring soon with a nice pension.  I might have a family that I come home to and love just as much as you—we’re all animals or creatures with carnal desires when you look at the big picture—which kind of makes us no different.  And, walking down any ordinary street, I could be brushing up against your sleeve at this very moment. 

I’m the kind of guy who talks your daughter into taking off her clothes for me before her sweet sixteen and spreads her wide open, just so she’ll be ripe and experienced for her real boyfriend.  I’m the kind of stain on humanity that tells little boys to bend over for me, or push women into dark alleys or doorways late at night.  If society only knew how much I enjoy what I do, they’d throw the book at me.

I’m a swarthy male with a strong, tall, virile frame that causes adult heads to turn and children’s faces to smile whenever I walk by, which makes my work all the easier.  A healthy, muscular body that is the envy of all the male eyes that stare at it just as much as the female ones, and a pinpoint of forbidden desire and mystery to those who welcome it.  During the night, however, I prowl the streets and nightclubs, looking for someone to break up the monotony of wanting something I cannot have.  And if I don’t look for it in the club scene by night, then I hunt for it in the schoolyards by day.

I remember that cool spring evening a few months ago, thinking I might just yet find it.  But all I found were lonely people searching for the same thing, and me, I’m rather picky.  There had been plenty of overtures for sex from both males and females, but I had concluded that I was more or less impotent for the evening.  I was positive that any sexual contact after Rebecca would be anti-climactic, so I almost ignored all attempts to catch a new victim’s attention.

Ah yes, thirteen-year-old Rebecca Wenderschmidt.  The little after-school Lolita with the perfect puberescent tits and ass.  She rocked my world, and always for a piece of candy; talk about innocence lost.  The only time I had really lived was when I was fucking her.  And that had been more than once and only for hours.  Hours out of years of not living, and yet those minutes far outweighed the years before her.  They were far heavier, far greater.  More seductive.  And I still had trouble shaking her from my head. 

Rebecca had never been in complete command of my brain until I killed her and chopped her up into little pieces.  I drove out to the wilderness and dumped her body parts in the swamp.  I had to.  She said she was going to tell her mother in detail about all the things we had done together.  Soon afterwards, I started thinking about her all the time, and whenever I saw other girls her age, suddenly her ghost was there.  That perfect image, grinning back at me.

Rebecca had been a study of passion every time I got a hotel room with her: wide-eyed and openmouthed, her young lips searching for mine, her tongue acting as if it had a mind of its own.  She tickled and licked me in all the spots I knew were arousal zones, and a few others a girl her age should not have known about until she finally touched and found them out.

She always insisted on undressing me, tugging at my clothes with a fury until she managed the T-shirt off my back.  But no apologies ever came and instead, she wrapped her skinny arms around my chest and explored my muscles with her lips and tongue, biting me around the nipples and neck as we toppled backwards on the bed. 

Always holding on to me with one arm, she slipped the other between our bodies and undid my belt and pants so she could push her small hand all the way in; sometimes I thought she was more of a predator than me.  Her fingers tickled my throbbing penis and gently caressed it with the touch of talented experience—that was the part that got me.  Gently, tenderly, yet sensually, they ran up and down my shaft, causing it to bulge against my clothes.  Bulge and throb until it was about to burst through them.  Then she’d let go and ease off me, and I’d tear at her Catholic school outfit while I slipped out of my pants and boxers. 

I really thought things would never be the same after Rebecca, until I spotted the woman in the trendy restaurant.  She wasn’t thirteen, or eighteen, or even twenty-one.  Perhaps thirty-five, but she looked like the kind of female I could connect with.  Small, tanned, and almost frail looking.  With finely-honed muscle power hidden in her long legs and slender but shapely body, she stimulated urges in me.  Urges that I assumed had died in that swamp with Rebecca.  Desires that had been ripped apart and burned in a turpentine-filled garage.  It wasn’t that she resembled Rebecca, though she did, but what turned me on was the vengeful “fuck me hard” look that glittered out of her dark eyes.  Rebecca had had that same appealing radiance.  That “I’m ready for what you are” type of attitude.  So I moved in.

Later, back at the hotel I had used for the hundreds just like her, she told me her name was Sally, and that she was a nymphomaniac. “Sally,” I said, playing with the name softly between my lips. “I like that.  I like that you’re a sex addict, too.” Smiling back at me, her long legs curled seductively as she wiggled to get comfortable on the bed.  She had been an enjoyable partner during dinner, a perfect drinking buddy afterwards and now, staring at her, I admitted I liked the way she coiled on the bed, making her slim but supple body fit the contours of the mattress and pillows. 

I liked the way her medium breasts hung and wriggled when she laughed, and I loved the way she undressed me with her eyes as if I was her victim.  The same, dark eyes that were now glued on me as I dropped ice cubes into a glass and washed them down with scotch.  Swirling the cubes in the glass, I felt her eyes slowly creep up and down my body, exploring the muscles and bulges just as Rebecca had.  Her eyes had a way of caressing a man’s frame, lighting the fire that burned until it was extinguished by an orgasm. 

Without looking back, I switched off the light.  Streaks of soft moonlight played in her hair and around the curves of her body so that even the shadows seemed to beckon me, call me to the bed.  Begging for satisfaction as well as demanding the right to give satisfaction. 

Unbuckling my belt with one hand, I watched as she placed her empty glass on the nightstand and settled back against the pillows.  I wondered when I had last seen such perfect tits.  There were so many victims, it was hard to tell between pairs.  But Sally, no.  Hers were soft and alluring, not too spongy for her age.  They hung like half-inflated balloons.  Large but not so big that they swayed back and forth like pendulous parodies.  Full, lush breasts that were white, matching her white buttocks, and presenting a stark contrast to the rest of her tanned body.  Then I remembered.  Rebecca had had breasts like that.  Proportioned for her body and age.  The image of Rebecca settled in my stomach like cold fire again, and I tried to shake the memory with several quick swallows of alcohol that burned my throat and watered my eyes, as I finally stepped out of my pants and shorts.

By the time I wriggled next to Sally, Rebecca was in possession of my every thought.  The woman wrapped her arms around me, pressing her wet, warm lips against mine; it was Rebecca who I was embracing and kissing.  It was Rebecca’s tits I fondled.  And it was Rebecca whom I was soon going to melt into as I shared a few moments of my existence.  Shared them with a ghost.

When it came to my prey, I was never much of a kisser.  I always tried to avoid a victim’s lips, so it was awkward trying to kiss her back.  However, I surrendered to the images of Rebecca flitting in and out of my mind.  She wouldn’t stay dead and the vibrant, moaning woman became that little girl to me all over again.  She offered me everything I had eliminated a few months before.

My tongue found hers and my fingertips glided over her body, pinching and tickling at the right spots until she groaned deeply in her throat and frantically searched for my cock.  Finding it, she wriggled out of my grasp and slid down so her lips could explore my bulging shaft.  Flicking the head back and forth, she murmured something incoherent.  She stopped licking to suck all of it into her throat; even the way she blew me was reminiscent of Rebecca. 

As my penis slid between those lush lips, I couldn’t hold back a single moan of pleasure.  Squirming and twisting the woman, I moved her around so I could match her sucking and begin playing with her clitoris between my tongue.  She quivered several times and raked her nails over my backside.  She sucked me in deeper and deeper until I thought there was no end to the depth of her mouth.  Several more eternities of oral stimulation continued with each groaning in the moonlight.

Then, as if on cue, I stopped.  I swung her around to kiss her face and lips, squeezing her so hard that her breath rasped out in tiny but happy jerks.  As I squeezed, she worked her hand in between them.  When her fingertips touched my penis again, she grabbed it and slowly jerked it back and forth, signaling me to back away slightly.  Enough so she could guide me in.

Grabbing her shoulders, I buried my face in the soft hollow of her neck and began pumping furiously.  She kept in tune and timed her movements to mine.  When she caught onto the rhythm, we moved in perfect unison and became one entity.  One being intent on experiencing the too-short shimmer of the orgasm.  The shimmer that began suddenly at the base of our spines. 

Moving her on her back, I felt her legs tighten around my waist; the strength of the woman was amazing.  Her scissors grip actually hurt, but again, it was an exquisite pain that just made me want more.  And I got more as I pumped harder.  Harder.  And harder.  Until I was ramming into Sally as viciously as I could. 

Her nails and teeth dug into me in a number of places too numerous to count and too pleasurable to care; she kept struggling for more sites to leave her mark as the ultimate pain hit us both at the same time.  The ultimate pain of being on the edge of cumming.  On the rim but not yet there.  Though it was only a few seconds until we exploded through both of our bodies, it seemed like hours as we pulled and pumped, tugged and kissed, moaned and squirmed. 

Finally, we were swallowed by the pleasure of our mutual climax.  We both drifted off in a dreamy, blissful release—floating, until we settled back to our slice of earth and time, relaxing and tasting the sweet sweat of our ecstasies speckling both our bodies.  Me and Rebecca’s old proxy.

We remained locked together, listening to each other’s hearts pounding away.  I became scared that my heavy bulk might be too much for her slightly built frame.  I reluctantly broke free.  She sighed when I pulled out.  Still half-hard, I whispered, “That was fantastic.  Again.”

Chuckling, I tried to penetrate her a second time; my half-erect penis slid in without any trouble.  As soon as our pubic areas intermingled, she began gyrating in a slow circle, working her hips in perfect timing.  She nipped at my neck and stimulated me all over again.  My once-quelled emotions were soon back to full erection, pumping back with violent rammings of my own.  This time the climax took longer but it was as sweet and soothing as the first one.  Still, it was exciting enough where I’d lost control of my biting, stopping only when she yelped in pain.

I began to act more sadistic towards her, giving her a slap here and a smack there, and she seemed to enjoy it.  Just like Rebecca used to.  However, the only difference was Sally seemed uncomfortable with me inside her while doing it.  When I pulled out she didn’t object.

Standing, I was pleased to see her legs quivering.  I went to the room’s wobbly-legged servicing table.  She skipped into the bathroom while I made more drinks.  When she came out, she looked as refreshed as when I had first spotted her in the restaurant.  Cool, placid, pleased with herself and aflame with the desire to try anything.

She took the drink I offered and put it down, then curled up next to me on the bed, like Rebecca used to, making me decide that I’d never be able to get enough of her supple body moving effortlessly into any position she wanted.  Never.  She took two cigarettes out of her purse on the nightstand and, lighting both, placed one between my lips.  I took a deep drag and, removing it, let the smoke dribble out of my mouth while I stroked her shoulder with my lips.  Her long, auburn hair tickled the back of my neck.

“She must have been one hell of a girl,” she finally said in a hushed voice.

“Huh?” I almost choked on my saliva.

“The girl you just made love to.”

“You mean fucked.”

“No, I mean loved.”

I frowned as if I didn’t know what she was talking about, but she just laughed at my efforts, the moonlight making her features even more fragile, but also questionable.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I said. “I’m with you.”

“Don’t play stupid,” she laughed. “I’ve been around long enough to know when a man is screwing me or some other girl.  I can feel that connection, and I know when things are off.  Either a younger lady from his past or one he hasn’t found yet.  There’s a subtle difference but most experienced women can tell.”

Her pert features grew more serious as she added, “I figure you don’t just dream about that certain someone and so you went out and found that love, like some predator.  And then you fucked up.  You let your obsessions get in the way, and you lost her.”

I sipped my scotch nervously and said, “Look, I had a wonderful time.  But I’m sorry, I have no idea—”

“Shh.  Don’t apologize,” she interrupted, hushing me with a delicate finger placed against my lips. “Don’t ever be sorry you found what most people frantically search for all their lives, and don’t ever make excuses.  No matter what kind of girl she was, or how old she was, be grateful you had some playtime with her.  Even if it was only one time, that’s one time more than the majority of the human race has to offer.”

Stunned by her empathy, and the way she read me and knew me so well, I stared at her and she smiled back.  For a quick moment it crossed my mind that she might have been a cop, or she might have known what I did in my off time.  My sickness, my fetish; call it what you will.  She might have very well known I had spent the last twenty years raping, sodomizing, molesting, and victimizing my own fears away on countless others.  Then again, she could have been just like me.  Only more striking, more ambiguous. 

Looking away from her, I said, “Yeah, well, when I picked you up, I wasn’t looking for a lifetime partner.  Just an evening of fun and pleasure.  Just something to control these urges.”

“When you picked me up?” she asked. “I thought I had picked you up.” She shook her head and laughed. “Good old male chauvinistic bullshit at work again.  No man picks up a woman unless she wants him to.  And I wanted you to.”

“That’s hilarious!” Then I chuckled and asked, “Even if it was to be a substitute for a shadow from my past?”

For some reason that seemed to hurt her and, at the time, I wanted to reach out and snatch back my feeble attempt to be amusing—like I said, at the time—but her words had already registered in her mind and I was helpless to do anything about them, as a pained expression flitted across her face.  The hurt look soon faded and was replaced with the glint of enjoying each other’s company.  Not minding having to take it as it came.  She kissed my shoulder in the moonlight and began massaging my testicles while we both agreed silently to forget everything. 

“Tell me about her,” she finally said.

“Why?”

“Just curious,” she remarked casually, that hurt skidding in and out of her eyes in a blink again.  However, the tone was slightly more inquisitive. 

At first, I did not want to tell her about Rebecca.  I had wanted to keep my statutory love and what it had meant to me inside my head, and selfishly hoard it from the world.  Even from one other person.  Even if she was dead and I couldn’t get over the fact that I was the one who killed her. 

I found myself babbling; I also found myself unusually drowsy. “Her name was Rebecca Wenderschmidt,” I began and she giggled.

“Really?” She began to tighten her hold around my nuts.

“Really,” I insisted, not really irked at her laughing at Rebecca’s name. “She was a…” I stopped and stared at Sally for a brief moment before I continued, “I could explain her to you, I guess, but unless you’re the kind of person I am and really felt it for yourself, you wouldn’t understand why it hurts so much.”

That sad look blinked alive again, and I realized what I was seeing in her expression.  She wasn’t angry or jealous.  She was empathic because she, too, had been envisioning an image of someone close to her.  Someone she had loved.  Someone she had lost. 

“She’s dead, isn’t she?” she asked suddenly.

“What?”

“What I mean is—” She began again. “Well, it’s just that you don’t impress me as the type of man who would let a girl you loved so much walk away from you.  And you’re too habitual to waste that kind of love.  So, she has to be dead.”

But her last remark didn’t ring true to me, and I began seeing through her little act with great suspicion. “You’re in a questionable mood,” I said.

“Is she dead?” she asked again, squeezing my balls harder.

“Why is that so important?” I knew the answer but refused to tell her.

“I want to know.  Is my daughter dead?”

Staring at her half-visible form in the soft moonlight, my mouth dropped in complete awe. “You mean, you’re…you’re…”

“Rebecca’s mother? Yeah, I’m Sally Wenderschmidt.  And I’ve been looking for my little girl for an awfully long time.  My baby still hasn’t come home.”

My eyes suddenly closed and I fell backwards off the bed.  I hit the hotel room floor with a great thud, as the strange drowsiness from moments earlier took full control of my body. “Wh… What did you do to me?” I muttered incoherently. 

I couldn’t get up for the life of me.  My vision was blurry, and I could only see a shapely female silhouette, slowly rising from the bed to put on her bra and panties. 

“I drugged your glass when we first checked in,” Sally said.

“What the fuck! You drugged me?” I heard her going into her purse.

“Yeah, I drugged you.  I picked you up, I screwed you, and now I’m going to find out the truth.  Only the truth will set you free.”

“But how? How did you know all those moves in bed? How did you relate to me so well?”

“Because my daughter told me about you.  She told me what you did to her.  She told me what you liked having done to you.  And she told me what kind of a sick monster you really are.” Sally laughed as she came around the bed and knelt over me with a sharp glimmering object. “Just another sexual deviant who can’t get enough.  So easy to victimize others, but oh so scared when they find themselves on the receiving end.”

“Please, don’t kill me,” I pleaded.

“I’m not going to kill you.  I just want to know… Is my daughter dead?”

Before I could answer her, the swirling blackness from whatever she had drugged me with had taken over.  But then she probably already knew the answer.

After that, the next time I awoke the sun was shining down upon me through rectangular slits in the room’s windows, and I was wearily tossing on the floor.  I sucked in a double lungful of air and found myself alone, staring up at the ceiling.  The blank, empty, white ceiling that resembled my life and that symbolized my existence pre-Rebecca and now post-Sally.

Like I said, the only time I had really lived was when I was fucking the woman’s daughter.  And that had been more than once and only for hours.  Hours out of years of not living, and yet those minutes far outweighed the years before her.  They were far heavier, far greater.  More seductive.  And to this very day, I still have trouble shaking both of them from my head. 

I got up and walked over to the mirror and blinked tears out of my eyes and wondered why I was so emotional.  That night, with Sally, I didn’t want to think of Rebecca or any of my past victims.  Not once.  I was hoping the scar tissue would heal the wound her death had left upon me, and the wound her mother had left.

So if somebody were to ask me if my life has changed dramatically, I would have to say it has in only one way.  Then I’d pull down my pants and tell them to look at where my privates used to be, and I’d say that they disappeared because one of my victim’s parents requested it…

 

The End 

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